Bloomin’ Mom: A Later Mom Shares – By Lori Loesch, MLTS Blogger
If you can – remember the first time you realized your loved one was growing older. I remember when I saw that my grandmother was not able to do the things she used to do. At first I thought that it couldn’t be. Then I felt anger. My grandmother wasn’t the woman that I grew up knowing. She doesn’t run across the street any more, and she doesn’t remember like she used to.
I can see I’m getting slower as I go. What used to be easy is now more of a struggle. Am I starting to show the symptoms of old age, as my grandmother did? She was a young mother, as was my mom. I’m 51 years old and the mother of two. My son is 20 and my daughter is 9. When I was the age of my second child, my mom was 29 years old. Sometimes it’s difficult to wrap my head around that.
Having a 20 year old brings up interesting thoughts for me. I am always reminded of the fact that I no longer can do a lot of the things that I did 20 years ago. I find myself wishing my younger child could have seen me then, when I could run up the attic steps with boxes in my arms! I rode bikes; I swam in the ocean… I no longer find it easy to go on field trips as I did with my first born.
I am not sure what has happened to me. When I had my last child I had lots of energy. As the years passed, my energy faded. I feel that having a baby at 42 has to be a blessing from God. And that God gave me this child in my old age. What I think I am looking for is someone to tell me it’s okay to be slow, and old, and tired as a later mom. Either that, or for science, to make it possible to have energy as I did when I was twenty…I am still looking…anyone?