Baby, Why Aren’t You Talking Yet? by Heather Bowles
When I was a little girl, my family, and my mother in particular, would brag to anyone who would listen to them for longer than five minutes about how incredibly smart I was. Nearly forty years later, my ears are still left ringing with the repetitive accolades of how I spoke my first words at nine months, and could read the local Sunday paper’s comic strip pages at the age of two and a half years. When you’re a child, you love hearing that sort of thing. Every child craves attention, and the feeling of being something special, and you don’t question it. You certainly don’t question your parents’ motivations for making such grandiose claims.
As a parent, I’m sure there was a certain amount of patting one’s own back for raising someone with so much promise and potential. But now, I’m left with an insidious sense of failure, due to the fact that my daughter is not performing the linguistic acrobatics that I was reportedly doing at her age. To protect my self esteem, and the opinion I am forming of my own child’s intellect, I find myself questioning everything I thought I knew about my own development. I wonder and even hope a little that my mother was full of crap, and that I did not really do the things my family swears that I did.
I want to believe that my child is smarter, more adaptable, and ultimately, will be a more capable, successful human being than either of her parents, but she is a quiet, mellow baby, and does not babble a great deal. She is not consistently performing the basic language milestones that I am told I can expect at this age even from professionals in the field. For example, I have been told to expect the following consonant/vowel pairings: ba-ba-ba, da-da-da, ma-ma-ma. One day this week, she made the ba sound for five, maybe ten minutes, and then never did it again, even with all the coaxing, begging and pleading I could muster. What does this mean? I don’t know.
Given her lack of opportunities to be sociable with others outside her immediate family, Tabitha actually handles contact with others quite well. The waitresses at the local Mexican restaurant we frequent are enamored with her smile, and spend a lot of time at our table whenever we are there, talking more with her than us, her parents. In that way, I suppose I can console myself that even if my daughter is not excelling at direct communication, she certainly can affect others in a way that she can have her needs fulfilled. I mean, good grief, she’s nine and a half months old and she can manipulate total strangers better than I.
For myself, it is not understanding where she is in terms of her language development that is the hardest part of parenting an infant who is not yet verbal. Should I continue to expect great things, or am I setting myself up for disappointment? Should I scale back my expectations? And why on earth do I even feel the need to compare myself to her anyway? That really needs to stop.
So you tell me, fellow later moms… did you feel performance pressure on behalf of your child in comparison with your own development? At what point does the worry that your child is not meeting someone else’s expectations go away? And how do you combat the feeling there is something more you could be doing if you only knew what that something was?
Tags: baby milestones, competitive parents, early socialization, language delay, language development, performance pressure, social development, speech delay, speech development
4 Responses to “Baby, Why Aren’t You Talking Yet? by Heather Bowles”
I knew that my son was meeting milestones during his younger years. But there was always something “off” about him that I just couldn’t put my finger on. During his late toddler years, the “off” started to surface and he was eventually diagnosed with Sensory Processing Disorders, Aurditory Processing Disorder and ADHD. Aha! That’s why he refused to sit on my lap for no more than 15 seconds to read a book when he was 18 months old! He is still a year behind in reading, despite tutoring at home twice a week as well as in school. Now that I have all of his services in place, I just sit back and maintain. This kid is going to make it in this world, issues or not.
Suggestion: Quietly notice first; assess if there is no progress within adequate time limits. Intervene only if necessary. Your wonderful daughter is a unique individual in her own special ways. Delight in her uniqueness! Although I never got the child I wanted, who would sit on my lap and read with me the way I did with my mother, I have a child who is a born athlete. Something I am definitely not. But I try to embrace it and always encourage it. He amazes me in so many ways!
By Cara Meyers on Jan 26, 2013
Of course you’re right, Cara. Tabitha has some amazing gifts, not the least being how sociable she is with others, and I’m sure it’s going to carry her far. She also loves books, although most times she’d rather chew them than look at them. I just have to figure out how best to engage her.
Today, I repeated the word “banana” over and over to her while I fed her her breakfast, which of course was a jar of bananas before her bottle, and although I got sprayed with food a couple times, I think she might, maybe, possibly have been trying to imitate the word. We’ll see how she goes.
No matter what happens, I’ll love her and cherish her, anyway.
By Heather on Jan 28, 2013
Hi Hearher,
For the past few weeks we have had to deal with question, “Is she walking yet?” it’s been frustrating at times. But in my heart of hearts I know she will walk when she is ready. How many 12 year olds do you know that don’t walk?? Same is true for Tabitha she will talk when she is ready. She’ll do it according to her own timeline. Try not to put too much pressure on yourself.
By allison on Feb 4, 2013
Hi Heather,
For the past few months we have had to deal with question, “Is she walking yet?” it’s been frustrating at times. But in my heart of hearts I know she will walk when she is ready. How many 12 year olds do you know that don’t walk?? Same is true for Tabitha she will talk when she is ready. She’ll do it according to her own timeline. Try not to put too much pressure on yourself.
By allison on Feb 5, 2013